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One year ago this week I had a miscarriage. I had been through one before, so I knew what was happening, and at my age it wasn't unexpected. I knew that this was my last pregnancy and tried to reassure myself that my family was truly complete with my two.

Two weeks later in the doctor's office the ultrasound showed a strong little heartbeat. One lost. One found.

I let the thought of a twin pass through me without grief because I am celebrating what I have.